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  • Hey, Emily. I talked to A.J. Your response was... better than I expected. I pretty transparent, aren't I? I agree that long distance would be impractical.

    Honestly, I'm approaching a cross-roads in my life. This summer, my family is moving to Utah and I might be staying with my parents and work and take online classes for a year or I might go to college and live on my own. Not to brag, but there are a lot of colleges that want me and I just haven't been sure. There was one idea that I had in the back of my head that I never seriously considered until now.

    I could go to college with you. But there is something I need to know. I don't need to know if you'd date me when I got there or if you could ever date me or anything really like that. Reality resists simplicity. You might meet your soul mate before then, you might not be in a part of your life you want to date, you might not have any interest in me in a romantic way, there are a million reasons why you wouldn't or couldn't. I just want to be your friend. I would love if it could be more, but that's not what's really important. What I need to know, though, is... would you want me there?

    More importantly, though, I'm sorry to hear that you're not with Alex anymore. Are you alright? I remember that, when you first started dating him, I promised that if you ever broke up, I would be there to be a shoulder to cry on the best I could. The offer still stands. Say as much or as little as you need. Oh, gosh, now I'm tearing up thinking about the possibility that this could trigger your eating disorder again. Now I'm scared.

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    • Emily, I don't want you to be afraid to talk to me about whatever is on your mind. Don't worry about what I'll think. You know that I already think you're fantastic. I doubt there's much you could say that will change my mind. And don't be afraid to disappoint us. For example, if you're afraid to disappoint me by saying that you don't want me to move to your town, just relax and tell me. I can handle it.

      You seem to only share the good things that are happening. I want to know it all. I want to be part of your world. I feel like I'm starting to know so little about you. Of course, you don't have time to write every thought and feeling, but when you find the time, share what's going on. It's really good for your psyche to vent and I want to know.

      This all feels terribly selfish of me. I'm sure you're very busy. You have other, closer, real life friends that you want to spend time with. I'm just scared of losing you. It would be so easy for any of us to leave and, then, *poof*, the rest of us never hear from them again.

      Why must I run my mouth?

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    • Hey, I'm sorry I've taken so long to reply with this message. You are correct in the face that I never share the full truth of my emotions and my life, but I'm ready to chang that. As cringy and cheesy as it is, new year new me, and I want you to know everything. You've been my friend for awhile and I feel like you deserve to know.

      As I've mentioned before there is many changes happening in my life right now, the first of which being my breakup with Alex. It was not angry or bitter, we are still very good friends, but we realized that our lives are going in two different dirrections and it is better for us to break it off now rather than later.

      A very important change is going to happen pretty soon. I will soon be going into inpatient for a while for my eating disorder and other issues. I've thought about this option for a while and have discussed it with my family and close friends and we have decided that it is the best option for me.

      Now, if I am coming completely clean with you I suppose I should explain what else I am going in to rehab for other than anorexia. For about three years I have had a almost daily addiction to self harm. Its had put my life in danger many times. I am also going in for recrational use of light drugs and addiction to xanax and klonopin.

      Now, the biggest change coming up. The date is not set, but near the end of the summer my family and I are moving back to Europe and I will be attending college there. We have decided that it is what is best for all of us.

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    • I'm... I'm so sorry. I don't know what to say. I wish I could be there with you. lf I had the money, a license, and your address, I would go right now.

      This is going to sound insane, but... I could go to Europe. Actually, I probably should go to Europe anyway. I'm almost certain I'm going into International Law and it's been advised that I consider going to college in Europe. Plus, I've always wanted to live in Europe. So, would you want me there?

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    • I'd really have to think about that for a little bit. To be honest I really don't feel like I'm anybody worth this much concern and support, but I really appreciate you.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      I'd really have to think about that for a little bit. To be honest I really don't feel like I'm anybody worth this much concern and support, but I really appreciate you.

      That is heart-breaking. Emily, you're so caring, smart, funny, determined beautiful, wise, and selfless. Of course, you're not perfect. Everybody has issues, but I don't love you despite your problems, I love you because of them. I can't imagine a world without you. I'm just some annoying kid who was lucky enough to be friends with you.

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    • Take all the time you need.

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    • Does this video sound like me?

      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NSG97zCOlyo

      Do I do everything I do to help you because I care about you or do I do it to get you to fall for me? Do you respect me? Do I give you reason to respect me? Do I give you everything that you ask for, but nothing that you really need? Do I crush you with my affection? Am I nice, sensitive, or a good friend or am I trying to get you to love me? Am I a friend or a friendzone zombie? Is this an unhealthly relationship?

      Of course, some of those are more for me, but I would like to see your view on them.

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    • Of course, I'm not asking you to answer them individually.

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    • Or if it makes you too nervous to answer, just don't. I don't want to make you uncomfortable. I want to know where we stand, but not at the cost of driving you away.

      I sometimes tell myself that if I knew it was never going to go anywhere, I'd be able to stop thinking about you. Ugh, no, I hate trying to be aloof. I just wish I knew a way to tell you that I feel like I'll always love you, but if you won't love me, I'll go on. I guess you can kind of guess. I'm devoted to you, but I've felt this way for a while and I've still gone after other girls.

      I love writing poems to express myself, but I have no one to write them for, so I don't write them at all. I think trying to express my feelings for you is my outlet for all that creative, romantic energy.

      Crap, love is the worst kind of torture. I kept writing more intense curses than just crap, but I couldn't go through with it.

      To paraphrase W.C. Field's last words, gosh darn to whole freaking world and everyone in it except for you, Emily. Of course, he wasn't talking to his wife, he was talking to his mistress, but the point still stands.

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    • When will rehab start? Is it already happening?

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    • I hate how desperate sending you a lot of messages in a row without a response must make me look. That isn't a complaint against you at all. I don't care how quickly you respond because I know that when you do, it will be very thoughtful and that's what's important. I don't ever want to make you feel like you're obligated to answer quickly. I just keep getting caught up in thinking about you and what I say that I always have to retroactively make sure I'm clear. Plus, I always want to say more to and about you. Surprisingly, though, that isn't why I'm writing you a message. I just wanted to preface it.

      When is Spring Break for you and do you have any plans? I really want to finally meet you in person, but if my Spring Break doesn't have any overlap with yours, you'd surely be too busy for me to visit. I suppose I might be able to manage to come when I still have school. If you have already have plans with friends and/or family, I wouldn't dare intervene. Unless your friends and/or family were cool with me coming. Of course, though, the most important question is do you even want me to visit?

      I'm really scared I'm driving you away. Again, nothing to do with response speed. I'm just afriad I'm sounding obsessed. This is exactly why I didn't tell you how I felt for so long. I knew when I did, the flood gates would open. I just can't help myself from just talking and talking endlessly. Why do I have to drive everyone I care about away? I'm not obsessed, I'm just passionate... I think. Just tell me if I'm driving you away. I can stop if I can just end the delusion that "maybe it's not driving her away. Heck, maybe she really likes it." I'm driving myself insane. I can only hope that it isn't too late.

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    • Hey, I'm sorry this took so long, a lot has been going on. I think you are a completely, wonderfully sweet guy and I really love that about you. You seem to always think of othe people before you think of yourself and you are very thoughtful. Even though you live such a long distance away it is a great feeling knowing that you support me. To be honest, I was scared that if I shared my complete reason for going into rehab that it would scare you away and I absolutely did not want that. So, I'm going to keep no secrets now, anything you want to know I will lay out on the table.

      I have now gotten the date for when I will go into rehab. I will start Febuary 20. Electroncs are allowed at this particular center so I will be able to keep up communication. :)

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Hey, I'm sorry this took so long, a lot has been going on. I think you are a completely, wonderfully sweet guy and I really love that about you. You seem to always think of othe people before you think of yourself and you are very thoughtful. Even though you live such a long distance away it is a great feeling knowing that you support me. To be honest, I was scared that if I shared my complete reason for going into rehab that it would scare you away and I absolutely did not want that. So, I'm going to keep no secrets now, anything you want to know I will lay out on the table.

      I have now gotten the date for when I will go into rehab. I will start Febuary 20. Electroncs are allowed at this particular center so I will be able to keep up communication. :)

      I'm so relieved that I haven't crossed any lines. It is a great feeling to know that you trust me enough to tell me whatever. I am curious to know, are you still in college or are you taking the semester off?

      Could you see us being together a few years down the line? Don't be afraid to tell me if it's no.

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    • Hey, Emily.... you're cute! ;)

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    • Hey, Nick....you're sweet! ;)

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Hey, Nick....you're sweet! ;)


      =)

      Could you please send me some more photos of you?

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    • You make me want to go to sleep each night a better person than I was when I woke up that morning.

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    • Are you feeling nervous about rehab?

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      Yeah, I am nervous but I want to get better. I need to.
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    • Damn, you're even cuter than I thought you were! I've been told I have nice plump lips, but yours seem perfect. And those eyes! I could lost in them for hours!

      I'm nervous for you, but I'm really glad you're doing this.

      Okay, now, sorry, but no more Mr. Niceguy. You keep dodging my questions, and I'm honestly getting a little pissed at this point. I've gotten to the point where I need to know: is there any chance of us ever being together or have I already blown it? Would you want me to move to your town? Am I stuck in the Friend-Zone? Do you respect me? At the very least, answer one of the questions.

      Honestly, I feel bad, but I also feel a little bit like a badass.

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    • I do respect you and I believe you are a very sweet guy and will make some girl very happy one day. I just don't believe will be or should be me. I am nobody worth moving across a country for and I really don't believe that I am such a good person as you believe. I can see that you care alot about me but I honestly believe that I am not what you deserve in life. Maybe one day when I get my life sorted out and resolve some of my problems my view on these things might change, but for now this is how I feel.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      I do respect you and I believe you are a very sweet guy and will make some girl very happy one day. I just don't believe will be or should be me. I am nobody worth moving across a country for and I really don't believe that I am such a good person as you believe. I can see that you care alot about me but I honestly believe that I am not what you deserve in life. Maybe one day when I get my life sorted out and resolve some of my problems my view on these things might change, but for now this is how I feel.

      So, what you're saying is the problem is you're not good enough for me? Emily, I love you for what you are and for what I know you can become. There is something in there that I absolutely agree with: you definitely aren't what I deserve in life. I deserve someone a tenth as amazing as you.

      I have to be honest about something, though. I've been trying to deny it for a while, but I feel like there is a strong possibility it is true. I'm going to be honest. I feel bad for you. You got the short end of the stick in a lot of ways. You were so young when your mother died. You were old enough for it to be awkward moving to a new country. You have anorexia. And you've done so much with what you have, which is one reason I love you. But you deserve so much better. And what I keep denying is.... I think part of the reason I love you is because I believe I could help give you a better life.

      Let's take your self-doubt and anything that makes it hard to be together out of the equation: do you think it would be possible for us to be together ever  or do you think you could never feel the same?

      What is so bad about you that you think you're such a rotten person? If you aren't comfortable saying it here where anyone could theoretically see it, email me at theglem4@gmail.com

      I love you.

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    • I love you in a way that I feel comfortable talking to you and I feel like you would never judge me or leave me for anything I say or do. I love you like a security blanket. When something happens and I feel hopeless I am always like 'At least there will always be Nick.' This is great and I adore that feeling because before it was 'At least there will always be suicide.' So I may not love you in the way you want me to, but I do love you.

      The reason I feel as if I am such a rotten person is because of things I've done. I've done drugs, I've drank, I've self harmed, I've fought people so much I have scars on my knuckles. I'm just all over not a good person.

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    • You aren't your mistakes. You're so much more than that.

      I knew you didn't love me like I love you, but is there anything about me that makes a relationship in the future unappetizing to you?

      On a lighter note, would you like me to visit you at some point?

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    • I see no downside to a relationship with you, you are a wonderful person. It might be nice to get a visit at some point in the future.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      I see no downside to a relationship with you, you are a wonderful person. It might be nice to get a visit at some point in the future.

      Oh, thank heavens.

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    • First day of rehab. How did it go?

      When would be a good time to visit?

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    • Hey, sorry I took a while to reply haha. Its been pretty good so far. The people are nice and group is pretty fun. Some people have some wild stories. There's another person in here named Nick, you two are actually pretty similar. Its kinda funny.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Hey, sorry I took a while to reply haha. Its been pretty good so far. The people are nice and group is pretty fun. Some people have some wild stories. There's another person in here named Nick, you two are actually pretty similar. Its kinda funny.

      Really, he's a lot like me? So you're saying he's ruggedly handsome. ;P But actually, how is he like me?

      I'm really relieved to hear that things are going well for you in there.

      Okay, hold on. I just had an idea... and there. I decided to see how well I could draw a heart for you in a minute and a half. I don't know why I did that, but here it is. It's trash. You know what, I'm going to make a speed drawing for you every day you are in rehab. I hope it can make you smile.
      Heart
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    • I'll do two today, though. This is really stupid. I gave myself 12 minutes to draw a dove and I ended up spending most of that time just on the near wing.
      Dove
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    • Haha, thanks for the speed drawings Nick. They're sweet.

      You actually demonstrated how you a rehab Nick are alike with your joke about being ruggedly handsome. The two of you have very similar humours and are awkward but in a charming way. He also seems to be pretty caring and sweet.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Haha, thanks for the speed drawings Nick. They're sweet.

      You actually demonstrated how you a rehab Nick are alike with your joke about being ruggedly handsome. The two of you have very similar humours and are awkward but in a charming way. He also seems to be pretty caring and sweet.

      Is it weird that I'm a little threatened by him?

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    • Nah, haha. :)

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Nah, haha. :)

      It's not weird? Now I feel really threatened by him! The battle between History and Proximity.

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    • Ha, the battle of the Nicks. That's interesting. :)

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    • Love Birds
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    • Those birds are life goals.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Those birds are life goals.

      I agree.

      Is 5'9" too short for you?

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    • Nah, height doesn't really matter to me as long as the other person can give good hugs. 😂

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Nah, height doesn't really matter to me as long as the other person can give good hugs. 😂

      Well, I'm great at that. Not as good as I am at kissing, but pretty good.

      I wish I could be embracing you right now.

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    • How do you feel about me saying stuff like "I wish I could be embracing you right now?"

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    • I've been sleeping a lot recently, in odd places too. I don't know why. Kind of off topic haha, but it came to mind. Nah, I don't mind you saying things like that.

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    • I'm glad. I love being lovey-dovey to you.

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    • Honestly, one of my favorite parts of being with Ashten was making her feel loved and confident... thinking back at our relationship, it was awful. I was kind of weird and overly affectionate and she showed me almost no affection besides responding "Love you, too," when I told her I loved her. I don't think I loved her, though. I thought I did, but I didn't. I loved not technically being alone. Every sweet thing I said to her should have really been directed towards the idea of relationships. (chuckle) You've been a better girlfriend to me as my platonic friend than she ever was. That sounds weird, but you know what I mean.

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    • (continuation from other thread)

      Still, your elegance and virtue pierces my fear and gives me hope.

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    • Do you feel physically attracted to me at all? Be honest. I guarantee I've heard worse.

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    • How long does/did rehab last? Are you still enrolled in college or are you taking the semester off?

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      I see no downside to a relationship with you, you are a wonderful person. It might be nice to get a visit at some point in the future.

      Tell me when and where. I've got a fairly free schedule (at least to take a long weekend to visit).

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    • Okay, so I have April 14th through 21st off for Spring Break, so that would be ideal, but like I said, I could work ahead one week and be there at least for a Saturday and Sunday, if not Friday as well, of any week.

      Honestly, I'm worried about you right now. It's almost been a month. XOXO

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    • Hey. I haven't been doing so good recently. Let's just say we can add 'sexual assault victim' to the list of reasons why you shouldn't be in love with me.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Hey. I haven't been doing so good recently. Let's just say we can add 'sexual assault victim' to the list of reasons why you shouldn't be in love with me.

      ... I don't know what to say... I'LL KICK THAT BASTARD'S F--KING ASS!!! Just a couple days ago, I found out that my dad was sexually abused. I don't know any of the details, but it has got me thinking, especially as a brother to an innocent sister. Now... oh, boy.

      I don't love you any less. I've told you part of the reason I love you so is because I feel like you deserve to be protected and this just adds to the feeling.

      It sounds like you think this means you're damaged goods (to use a common metaphor). You're not. I'd love you just the same if you were the town slut as I would if you had never felt a man's touch before.... something about that sounds odd. You know what I mean, though.

      I want to be there for you. No, I have to be there for you. Please, let me in. If you would, please tell me the next available moment you have and your address. I'll come as soon as you'll have me. (here's my email since I'm sure you don't want to disclose your address on a public site: theglem4@gmail.com)

      Unless you just want to be alone. I can respect that, too. It's all up to you.

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    • I don't know what I want right now, I'd have to.think about it though. I've been trying to keep myself distracted but my resting vitals register as a panic attack and I just want to scream and cry and puke but nothings coming up

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      I don't know what I want right now, I'd have to.think about it though. I've been trying to keep myself distracted but my resting vitals register as a panic attack and I just want to scream and cry and puke but nothings coming up

      If I ever find out who did this, I'm going to do everything in my power to make him pay... within the bounds of the law. Of course, if he gets indicted, there's nothing else I could do.

      What have you been doing besides panicking? My advice would be to try to take up some form of art, like writing a story or painting an abstract picture. I probably wouldn't advise painting landscapes or anything because you want to take yourself away from reality and that would make you focus on it.

      I need you to promise something to me. Promise me that if you start feeling suicidal, you'll call the suicide helpline or do whatever you can to keep yourself from doing something drastic. I wouldn't be able to live in a world without you. It could send me down a road that I don't think I'd ever be able to free myself from. A road of selfharm and drugs and all kinds of problems. Maybe suicide. If you can't live for yourself, please live for me. And if you do do something drastic... promise to tell me. I need to have closure.

      Why couldn't it have been me?! I would have suffered it a million times before I'd let you suffer just the aftermath of it!

      Please, surround yourself with loved ones. It will help. And, if you need to talk, I'm here and will be checking for messages all day. I might skip rehearsals. I want to stay informed. But I don't have to be if you don't want to talk about it.

      If you have Skype, I can also Skype with you any time.

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    • I might be a good idea to take a nap. I'd say take some melatonin. It sounds like you have an addictive personality, but there haven't been any cases of addiction to it before, so you'll probably be fine.

      If you need to talk, I'm a phone call away. My home number is 717-755-9823. We usually don't pick up the phone if we don't recognize the number, so if no one picks up, just leave a message.

      I'm sending all my love and hope.

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    • Well, I haven't heard from you, so I'm going to rehearsals.

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    • Hey. Thank you for the advice. I definitely try it. I promise I will tell you and get help if I get some dangerous thoughts. Thank you for caring. I will definitely call you sometime, so be expecting it.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Hey. Thank you for the advice. I definitely try it. I promise I will tell you and get help if I get some dangerous thoughts. Thank you for caring. I will definitely call you sometime, so be expecting it.

      Oh, awesome. I would absolutely love a call from you. So, I know it's you, what is your number?

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    • Awesome. We can talk tomorrow. I am beat.

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    • Yeah! You get some sleep.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Yeah! You get some sleep.

      Awe, you're so sweet! Unless you were being sarcastic, in which case, I say: First, I commend you on your humor. Second, hey! I'm not just abandonning you in your time of need. I have an excuse. For the two hours before I went to bed, I was writing the script for a seven minute road show with another guy and two girls, all of which were a year younger than me and quite hard to work with. They wouldn't hear me out for most of my ideas.

      Anyway, I'll be expecting a call today. Tell me if something comes up and you don't think you'll be able to.

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    • Haha don't worry. I wasn't being sarcastic, you need rest. My schedule is pretty booked today but I will most likely be able to call between 3:00 and 6:00.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Haha don't worry. I wasn't being sarcastic, you need rest. My schedule is pretty booked today but I will most likely be able to call between 3:00 and 6:00.

      Sounds perfect.

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    • Hey, sorry I had to cut if off so soon. Near the end if you remember I yelled to someone else that I was in a call and would have to talk later. That was they guy that assaulted me and he chased me down the road and didn't leave. He kept following me. I'm sorry I cut it off so soon but I needed to get away from that guy.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Hey, sorry I had to cut if off so soon. Near the end if you remember I yelled to someone else that I was in a call and would have to talk later. That was they guy that assaulted me and he chased me down the road and didn't leave. He kept following me. I'm sorry I cut it off so soon but I needed to get away from that guy.

      Wait, what?! Holy crap! Hey, don't worry about me. I'm just glad you're okay.

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    • Yeah. I told him I had to go get ready for the event I'm going to later. He tried to get me to stay with him but I got away.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Yeah. I told him I had to go get ready for the event I'm going to later. He tried to get me to stay with him but I got away.

      Where were you?

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    • At my rehab center if you are deemed not a threat to yourself or others you can check out and agree to be back by a certain time/date. For the past week I've been at my friends house helping her prepare for her wedding and I was taking a walk in the neighborhood

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      At my rehab center if you are deemed not a threat to yourself or others you can check out and agree to be back by a certain time/date. For the past week I've been at my friends house helping her prepare for her wedding and I was taking a walk in the neighborhood

      Oh, okay.

      So, are you going to take legal action?

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    • No. I feel like it would cause a lot of shit.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      No. I feel like it would cause a lot of shit.

      How could it be enough that it isn't worth sending this bastard off to rot in prison?

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    • (sigh) I just love you. :)

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    • Thank you. I love you too.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Thank you. I love you too.

      And what wings that gives my soul, if even for a second, is unfathomable.

      How long does rehab last?

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    • Things have been kind of tough for me recently. I'm not enjoying things like I used to. Is there anytime in the next week you'd be available to talk?

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    • I'm quite busy with my friend's wedding but I am definitely completely free on Saturday

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    • Oh my god, I am so sorry, but I can't do it today. Will tomorrow be good?

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Oh my god, I am so sorry, but I can't do it today. Will tomorrow be good?

      It's funny, something came up and I couldn't have done it yesterday anyway. Today some time after 4:30 should be good.

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    • Theglem4 wrote:
      EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      Oh my god, I am so sorry, but I can't do it today. Will tomorrow be good?
      It's funny, something came up and I couldn't have done it yesterday anyway. Today some time after 4:30 should be good.

      Actually, make that 6.

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    • Yeah, great. 😄

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    • I've really enjoyed talking to you over the phone. It's nice to hear your voice.

      I really wish we could go to the beach together or something during Spring Break (which for me is April 14-21 [I have something on the 22nd]), but I assume that you can't (or shouldn't or won't or whatever) stay out of rehab for another week, right? If I can come down next week, though, let me know as soon as possible. If you already have plans with friends, I hate to suggest this, but maybe you could ask if there's room for one more. Also, if you are worried that there would be awkward silences or something like that based on our conversations on the phone, I assure you that I'm much more fluent in person, I just feel awkward on the phone.

      I don't want to seem pushy or anything. It's all your choice of course. I was just hoping to finally meet you in person and this seemed to a good oppurtunity.

      We can discuss it over the phone if you prefer.

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    • Plus, I could really use a change of scenery.

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    • This is a really stupid question, but... when I talk about other girls, does it make you.... jealous? I know that's absurd. You don't even like me that way. But I don't want to risk hurting your feelings or anything, so I want to be sure that you have no problem with me talking about other girls.

      Also, do you still want me to visit you sometime this summer?

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    • I just typed a huge thing, but it apparently didn't go through. To summarize:

      I'm worried about you. Are you okay? I'd like to have some way to find out if something happens to you.

      I sometimes feel like I might be smothering you. Tell me if that is ever the case.

      Is the number you gave me your dad's phone? The caller id says Robert or something and I don't want to be bothering him.

      I might call you some night this week or on Saturday if I don't hear from you soon.

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    • I am just having trouble these days and the number I gave you is my personal cell. You're free to call at any time.

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      I am just having trouble these days and the number I gave you is my personal cell. You're free to call at any time.

      I'm sad to hear that. You've just made my day by messaging if that's any consolation.

      It doesn't make you jealous when I talk about my other crushes, right?

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    • No, it doesn't

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    • Do you still want me to come down to see you soon?

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    • I've been wanting to call you, but I keep getting nervous.

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    • What's your address? Also, my mom really wants to talk to your dad or someone before letting me go.

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    • hey i am so so so so incredibly sorry but something crazy important has come up and we're not gonna be able to do this i am so so sorry nick

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    • EEshouldnotB2 wrote:
      hey i am so so so so incredibly sorry but something crazy important has come up and we're not gonna be able to do this i am so so sorry nick

      Like, we can't do it at all or we would need to postpone it for a month or two?

      More importantly, is everything okay?

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    • Hey, are you doing alright? I haven't heard from you in a while.

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    • A FANDOM user
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